By Robert Rundo
There is an unpleasant truth that many of us have to comes to terms with those taking up the cause. That is the possibility of landing in one form or another of a government institution. When and man’s freedom is replaced with steel shackles and your left to view the world from a cage, it can be a soul-crushing experience. In this article, I will go into overcoming the mental aspects of becoming a prisoner, as I have been through this daunting experience more than I would like to admit. But each time, I have become more hardened, more focused, and more determined.
The first piece of advice, and maybe one of the most important, is that it does not mean your life is over or the fight if you find yourself behind the wire. It is true the world you once knew may be gone, but that does not mean the end for you. This cannot be stressed enough. It’s also important to remember some of history’s most prolific men have spent time behind bars, only to come out and achieve greatness. I will even go as far as to say for some men, Unfortunately, the hard time of prison is what they need to reflect on getting their values together. I have known plenty of young men before entering were party boys, with no direction pissing their life away. Only to come out of prison stronger and more focused than they thought possible, to go on to start families and business, they might not have done otherwise. As a teenager, when sentenced to two years, I had zero direction in life, and I believe that if I had not gone, I would have become hooked on drugs or worse, as that was the direction I was heading like many others in my neighborhood. Regardless of how you come out on the other side, entering the prison system can be one of the most nerve-wracking experiences one will undertake. One of the hardest parts that will determine how the time goes will be handling it mentally. Some men cannot make peace with the fact where they are. They torture themselves worse than the guards can do as they spend all day waiting to get on the phone to ask friends about the outside world or laying in bed just staring at pictures of what was. Again I understand I was there too, laying wide awake at night staring at a ceiling, praying with all my soul to turn back the hands of time, replaying the scenario that landed me behind the wire over and over till I was physically sick. Not only does this slow time dramatically other inmates can see this and interpret it in many ways. So one needs to make peace with his surroundings, accept you are now a prisoner. It is a difficult pill to swallow, but it will vastly improve your mental and physical circumstances. Also, a suggestion is to keep the only contacts you truly need from the outside world and break off the rest. It’s better to end relationships on your terms because it will hurt a lot more when the letters stop coming and they stop picking up your phone calls because they moved on. This also serves to keep your mind grounded instead of fantasizing about what they are doing while you are stuck inside. To bare, the new surrounding walls it’s important to make life move for you inside. This means staying active, talk with others don’t stay stuck in your thoughts but keep busy. When I was just a teenager in prison, an old-timer told me the wise saying, “hard steel cures restless hearts,” referring to lifting weights that we had at that facility. Working out and reading will be your escape from the walls around you and medicine for your spirit. For working out, keep routine, set goals, and most importantly, work out hard and work out long. It doesn’t matter where they put you; you can always find a way. When I was in solitary confinement, I had to put my feet on top of the toilet to do push-ups in my tiny cell, but still, I managed. As the old saying goes, a healthy body healthy mind. Working out will get you some respect in other inmates’ eyes as well, but more importantly, it will help you have a sound sleep, which can be a difficult thing when your first entering. When white nationalists go to jail, we go to better ourselves. Read, read and read some more. I cannot say enough how much a good book meant to me inside. It is an escape from the cage those bastards put us in and something they cannot control; as long as you have books, you have freedom. As most inmates are an absolute waste of life and space, you will most likely hear endless discussions about basketball, rappers, and drugs that can have a dulling effect on the brain, reading will keep you sharp. Stick with the classics and history-based books and strive to see what else you can learn in terms of skills, maybe a new language, or see what programs the facility offers to keep the mind stimulated. Reading history-based books about our race’s struggle and the hardships they endure will serve as another valuable tool and brings me to my next point. It is important to remember you are not alone! I am not speaking about the heroin dealer who is also serving a prison sentence but the hundreds of thousands of political prisoners who believed just like you and were imprisoned for their views. Our enemies have always used gulags and prisons to break our wills, but as you see, we are still here today. Many men in our struggle have faced far worse, from firing squads to constant torture, something most likely you will not be facing. I remember on a trip to Budapest; I got to visit the secret police headquarters of the communist. Under the building were cells where they kept the prisoners. The air was still with the odor of mold and decay. It was a place where the rays of sunlight never touched. Each cell had a drain on the floor to wash away the blood and teeth after the endless brutal beating they would receive. Many of our people went through those dark cells and survived. It was remembering scenes like that or books I read that gave me strength when I felt the weight of the bars crushing my will when self-pity tried to enter my mind like an intoxicating poison. When I was in solitary confinement, I put up a piece of paper with toothpaste as glue on the wall next to my bed. It read, “better men have gone through worse,” and even though life was hard for me, it could be a lot worse, and that helped my resolve. A good habit is to have some mantra or a prayer you memorized, for when the prison blues come, you can force them off. An example would be to repeat “all will work out” and repeat this to yourself over and over even if everything is wrong. i believe to a degree in the law of attraction, if you say do yourself what bad luck you have, what a fuckup, and other negative thoughts, you will implement this into your physic and bring on negativity. As goes the opposite, remember the saying fake it till you make it, keep your head up and walk tall even if inside you want to give up. Those who will have to experience this adversity and come out the other end know that you may lose a lot, but you will also gain knowledge and traits that cannot be bought by money but only through an iron will. These traits you gain will only make you that much stronger and experienced than our soft belly enemies. The great Julis Ceaser once said, “It is easier to find men who will volunteer to die than to find those who are willing to endure pain with patience.”
At the original time of writing this article, I was imprisoned, awaiting an uncertain future…